Hello everyone from deviantart, gaia, blogger, etc. I first and foremost want to say, as I have many times already this semester, I'm sorry for the great time of inactivity. Between school and a handful of RP projects I have had little time to myself. That will soon change though.
Tomorrow is my last day at my community college. I feel mixed about it. I feel a bit sad at first. I had a lot of really fun times there and met a lot of amazing people. I regret I didn't do more things and feel for a semester and a half I just crashed. Part of me feels excited though, restless, apprehensive. I am unsure what the future holds at this time, but I feel ready to move on.
Leaving college, it seems like everyone has some advice for me. I listen eagerly and take it all in. Two things keep ringing in my head as I make the long drive back home. My fill-in painting professor gave me a wonderful, thorough critique. He must have noticed my nervousness at first because he said "okay look we'll do it this way, I'm giving you an A for the semester, now here's what you need to work on with your work...". The critique was great and helpful and I was surprised and pleased by the A...but...his last words to me really hit me. "There is no question you have the raw talent and ability, it's just whether you can handle the environment and critique." Critique is an issue I had for a long time. I just months ago started feeling comfortable with it and encouraging it. I know the art world is competitive and that is what I myself have worried about. Can I do it? Can I make it? I wonder sometimes...but it is a point I need to work with and I will be very aware of in the next few months.
The second professor to give me advice was my biology professor. It's surprising that his advice out of all the advice I received seems the most jabbing but...he wrote on the blackboard at the end of our test "Words of Wisdom: Unless you try to do something beyond what you have already mastered, you will never grow." I need to start listening to this. It feels like I've been avoiding leaving where I currently am...I do not like my current lot in life, yet I do little to change it. I convinced myself I couldn't change it. No, it's not going to be easy but I'm ready to grow. I'm ready to move on, as I said before.
I'll upload my painting assignments within the next few days and catch up with my messages now that I don't have an overload of work. Thank you all for your support and patience. I can't ask for greater friends,
Aeternus
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